My First Love

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Welcome to my weekly panic attack.
I'm your host, Remy Brooks. I've

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been a licensed psychotherapist for over twenty
years and run a thriving private practice.

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I'm also diagnosed spy polar and OCD. Often the two do not mix well,

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which tends to throw my life into
complete chaos. So as I do

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some spiraling, my best friend Liz
Win will do her best to ground me

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a bit. During this podcast,
we'll be talking about the horror and the

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humor of the anxieties of daily life, the things we do that are embarrassing,

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funny but yet very human. Let's
get started, Hi, honey,

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how are you good? How are
you good? Here's a well adjusted moment

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from Lizze's life. My mom told
me that I looked terrible and a new

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oufit I bought, so you're passive
aggressively iced her out for the next two

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weeks. Right, No, Remy, we had a calm conversation. I

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told her how she made me feel, and she apologized for good. Now

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and this has been a well adjusted
moment from Lizze's life. Guess what time

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it is, Liz, What it's
time for? What the hell am I

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stressed out about? Today? And
what the hell are you stressed out today?

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Actually, it starts with an update
from last week. Last week,

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I was talking to you about my
destructive dog, Lucy and how she the

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couch pillows and how she eats my
blankets and all of that. There have

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been so many changes between our last
time talking and right now talking, so

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many changes that I'm actually a little
paranoid, and I kind of like want

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to lower my voice because I don't
want her to hear me. You mean

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that much changed in seven days after
we last spoke. Okay, don't think

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I'm crazy, because since we last
spoke the night of she stopped sleeping in

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my bedroom. She stopped just attacking
the pillows and the blankets. She moved

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on to other things. The red
ottoman I have in my living room she

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started licking, then scratching, and
then I caught her biting at it,

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So it's now covered with a towel. Okay, the runner that I have

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that when you open my garage door, it's right there and it leads all

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the way down the hallway. I
love my runner. She started praying at

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it, like clawing at it,
and then chewing at it, and then

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completely ate it and it has now
entered my trash dumpster and it has gone

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to where all the trash goes and
lives. Wait a minute, so your

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dogs somehow listen to our conversation and
is now destroying even more stuff than they

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were doing before. I am afraid
that she overheard our conversation, knew that

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I was talking poorly about her,
did not like it, and plotted her

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revenge. And now I am in
a room with the door closed, and

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I think she is on the other
side of the door listening, and I

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am afraid that a dog is smarter
than me. Huh interesting, Yeah,

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smart, that's a smart dog.
I'm living in a house where the dog

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has taken control. And it all
started after we talked last week. So

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that's the Lucy update. And now
for the exact opposite of I think before

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you start the next story, I
think you should say Lucy's great, Lucy's

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great, Lucy's great three times,
and maybe, like Candy Man will actually

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like work, Lucy's great, Lucy's
Great, Lucy's Great. I think it

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worked. You update us next week. That was such a good idea.

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I think that was such a great
idea. Okay, just one more time.

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She is so good. She is
the greatest dog in the entire world.

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And I hope that she hears that
and knows that and believes me,

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because Lucy is great. Okay,
okay, all right, I think I

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feel better, slightly less paranoid.
Oh my god, what am I going

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to wake up to tomorrow? My
God? Hopefully breakfast in bed by the

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dog? Okay, you mentioned being
because you actually had the title for a

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really, really long time. We
all our entire friend group called you the

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pet rescuer um. I talked last
week about how we were going to talk

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about how you introduced me to the
love of my life, and in a

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very ridiculous way, I think you
kind of lost it for just a second

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there. You said, but you
already knew your husband before you met me,

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And I thought, you know,
well, I guess it would make

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sense that somebody would think the love
of one's life would be the person that

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they were married to for fourteen years. That would make sense. But yeah,

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honestly, that was really a ridiculous
statement that came out of your bath.

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Really so silly of you. No, it was not my ex If

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we go all the way back tonight, teen ninety nine, my god,

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that was a long time ago,
Oh, Liz, was that a long

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time ago? It was a time, way, way way back before I

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had a dog who was smarter than
me. I was in a work meeting

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and my cell phone rang, and
I I was in a work meeting,

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so I went to switch it right
to a voicemail. But you were the

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caller, and Liz, in all
of the time that I have known you,

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all the way back back back then, for all the way to this

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current day, I think that one
time in nineteen ninety nine was the only

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time you have ever called me during
a work day. So while I was

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going to whoever this was that was
calling, put it right to voice now,

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I saw it was your name,
and I answered the phone real quick,

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and I said, you know,
hold on a second because I was

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going to leave the meeting. And
it was sheer panic. You know,

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you were in a car accident.
You're in the hospital, you are dying.

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Something happened to your brother, Oh
my god, what happened to your

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mother? Is your grandmother? Okay, what do you need? I'm on

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my way in my head as I'm
getting up from this meeting and going outside

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to take this call. In my
head, I'm thinking, what do I

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need? I need my purse,
I need my keys, I need the

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phone. I have the phone.
I have the phone. What what happened?

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What is wrong with Liz? I
am panicked and I finally get outside,

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Liz, what's wrong? Right?
I remember that I remember you a

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panic and I didn't understand because I
was just didn't calling out of the blue,

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which has never happened. One time, Liz nineteen ninety nine. One

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time, and you said to me, do you remember when you mentioned that

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you were thinking about getting a cat? And yeah, no, I didn't

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remember that at all, but you
had mentioned kat, and I realized you

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weren't like on death store, and
I had come down, and I thought,

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for the sake of you know this
conversation, sure I'll play along.

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Yeah I remember that. Yes,
let's go with that. Yeah, I

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remember that, Miss pet Rescuer.
Oh wait a minute, Wait a minute.

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You know, I am a person
who may not remember where I put

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my car keys, but I do
remember conversations with people. So it could

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have been that you said it like
a year and a half ago. But

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I did remember that you said.
I do not doubt the fact that we

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must have had this conversation. At
some point, I actually understand that you

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remember my memories much better than I
recall my own memories. I get that

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one hundred. So you said to
me, you know, the back of

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our building faces the woods, and
my coworkers went outside to have a cigarette,

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and they hear in the woods like, yeah, yeah, this kind

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So yeah, they do they and
this cat comes running out of the woods

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to them, this this little kick, and she was sweet and she's like

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pouring up the storm, and she
wasn't the least bit afraid. She was

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like so friendly. And I'm thinking, you said that if you're still interested

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in getting the cat, this is
the cat you should have. And I'm

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like, well, then, clearly
this is the cat I should have.

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Yes, I remember you were bringer
refer me to like bring that cat home,

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and I was already in my head
thinking how am I going to get

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this cat safely back right? Well? And so my answer was, well,

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bring her home now. And you're
well, you know I work,

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Yeah, like I don't have to
work, and I'm like, no,

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no, no, um, bring
her now. Well, like at the

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end of the day, well,
you know, when I'm don't work,

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I'll bring her right to your house. No, no, no, list

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bring her now. Yeah, you'll
have her. You know, by the

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end of the day. I will
go right to your house. Oh you

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know, because you could just bring
her now. I will bring her at

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the end of the day. You
know, it's a funny thing when you

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have a boss. I know you
don't you have those very often. So

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Boss, I'm speciated your desk.
It's hard to be like, I'm chilling

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out. I go home for two
hours. But yeah, I don't like

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the whole boss thing. It never
really worked out well for me. So

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you start to me, um,
don't you think that you should talk to

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your fiance about this first? And
I was like, oh, there's a

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packing order there. You know,
certain conversations you have to have. And

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I was like, WHOA do you
think I should talk to him first?

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I think you even tried to get
me to talk to him. You were

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like, yes, I think you
need to call him. Okay, I

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will call you back in five minutes. Answer the phone because you have a

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problem answering your phone. I said, answer your phone. I will call

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you back in five minutes. So
I call, said fiance and I'm like,

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hey, remember those conversations that we
had about, you know, getting

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a cat, and he, rightfully, by the way, responds, we

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never had any conversations about getting a
cat. And I'm like, do you

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ever listen to me? No,
you probably sound like Charlie Brown wat watwah

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in the background. We have had
so many conversations about bringing in a cat,

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and he says, we have never
talked about a cat. Now,

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he's right, But you know what
it is as if I talk and talk

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and talk and you just pretend to
listen. Why is that? Why is

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that the way we communicate? I
don't understand this. Why are we talking

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about a cat? The poor man
you were flipping the script on him,

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trying to make him come back on
his heels. I was why are we

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talking? Why are we arguing?
Why are we fighting? Why are we

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fighting? Because this is something we
have talked about for such a long time.

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Never And Liz is at work and
her coworkers found this beautiful cat.

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Oh my god, we're not getting
a cat. Well, we're not actually

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getting a cat. It's a kitten. We're not getting a kitten. And

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the kitten is such a love FuG. We're not getting a kitten. And

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she just jumped into the coworker's arms
and started parring. Remy, we're not

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getting a kitten. Oh my god. We've talked about this so many times.

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I don't think we've ever talked about
it so many times. We've talked

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about this, and now literally it
falls into our lap and you're telling me

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no. This seems very unfair to
me, very unfair. You know what,

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We're getting this kitten. Just because
you don't remember this conversation does not

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mean that it did not happen.
So I'm just giving you a head up.

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We're getting a kitten. All right, you'll meet her tonight. Five.

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I love you, so I call
you back within five minutes. You

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said I'm not allowed to get a
cat. First you were like, I'm

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not allowed to get a cat.
I'm like, okay, now what do

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I do with this cat? But
she had already decided yes. I'm like,

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so I'm not allowed to get a
cat. Bring her over because she's

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mine. They'll get in store.
So you brought her over that night.

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I did. After you've left.
She was on my lap and just as

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she described, she was purring up
a and I am petting her, and

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you know the now X was not
home yet and I'm petting her and I'm,

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you know, just loving her to
pieces. And I say to her,

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what is your name? Is your
name Sally? And she's hurring and

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I said, is your name Gracie? And she's purring and I said,

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is your name Gidget? Now?
Yep, I remember you told me that

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she picked her own name. I
thought that was hilarious. Is that her

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name? Is her name? Gidget
Meal? Now liszt This cat, this

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stray kitten that you brought to me, comes into my life with her own

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team the theme song. How could
there be anything more perfect than that?

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So Gigon and I worked together for
eighteen years. Wow, you know I

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always forget that you had her almost
twenty years, which is like astounding.

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Well, the vet kept putting these
horrible, horrible messages in my head,

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which for me, it's not a
good thing. Every year that we would

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go to the vet, the vet
would say, and it was always the

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same vet that we saw every single
year. The vet would say, it's

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as if this cat doesn't age or
like she gets younger every time I see

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her. And the eight her seventeenth
year, the seventeenth year at her um,

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the vet said, it is as
if this cat never ages. And

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then when she was eighteen, um
of almost nineteen, she had that little

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pimple on her lip and it turned
out to be a tumor and that was

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that was that for her and heartbreaking. I loved her. Oh my god,

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So what we went through together.
She saw me through my engagement,

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yes, my engagement, my breakup
with him, my re engagement, marriage,

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and then ultimately divorce. She moved
with me into three apartments and then

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eventually this house that we thought.
She was with me through all of Dudley's

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life and some of Bob's life,
who was the dog after Dudley. She

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was with me through both of my
kids. She had YEP, through many

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highs and many loads of my career. I actually kind of thought the cat

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was going to outlive all of us
at that point, So did I Liz.

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There was never a thought because the
VET kept saying. Because the Vet

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kept saying, it is if she
never ages. I really like, we

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got to age seventeen, I thought, you know what, she is going

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to be with me forever. We
get to eighteen, She's going to be

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with me forever. And then then
eighteen hit and oh my god, she

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was with me through the death of
my grandfather, and she is the one

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who was there for the death of
my dad. Yeah, yeah, I

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remember that. I know that.
I have forever said Liz that you are

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my best friend, but Gidget,
Gidget was my best friend. I take

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no offense too. I'm glad that
you don't. And it's funny because as

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a therapist I had a client who
told me that their best friend was a

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cat, and that cat was the
only one that they could talk to you

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about anything, everything, and that
that was the only time that they could

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really open up and that the one
real true love of their life. What's

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the cat? Not like, what's
the cat? We're gonna take a quick

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break and we'll be right back.
Look, it was a cat, not

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It wasn't like it was like a
mannequin. It was a being, a

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being that loved you and snuggled you
and nuzzled you, and oh god,

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I felt so horrible. I remember
when you called me when you had to

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have her put down. I'm like, how upset you were. And then

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I've been before that. He had
said you had read a story about someone's

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cat who lived at like thirty four, and you're like, I think she's

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gonna live to thirty four. I'm
like, I hope this cat lives to

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thirty four for you? Yeah,
yeah, um yeah. And you've never

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gotten another cat. No, I
don't think I ever could. The years

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that gidgett and I had together,
we only had one argument and it was

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about It was a long argument.
It was a five week argument. How

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sorry, did you have an argument
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Well, I gave birth to my
firstborn um dared to bring him into our

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house. And it's interesting because I
thought I knew that Dudley was going to

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have the problem with the baby.
I didn't think for a second that Gidget

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was going to have a problem.
I mean Gidget, you know, Gidget

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and I we we were Yeah,
there was nothing that could separate me and

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Gidget. I thought Dudley was going
to have the issue. But when I

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brought the baby home and I had, you know, gotten them somewhat familiar,

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and everything was calm, and you
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on the carpet and Dudley was,
oh my god, Liz. He was

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beside himself, sickly. He was
the happiest. He was running circles with

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excitement. He was like di di, I call him, I call him,

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he's mine. He's fine. I
get him first, I get him

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first, He's mine. But he
couldn't stop. And that joy that Dudley

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had for this baby lasted them.
I mean his entire life. He loved

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this kid. They were together for
eight years. That kind of love he

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had every single moment for eight years. Gidget came over to the baby,

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smelled the baby. He looked at
me and said, I will never forgive

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you for this, and then she
walked away and stayed away for about a

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month. For a month. Uh
huh, yeah, wow, I needed

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her so badly. I gotta remember
you were you were stressed now because you

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really hadn't been around babies a lot
um. No, No, I hadn't.

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And uh it was horrible and I
was going through postpartum and I hate

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life and I hated the baby.
And Dudley was he was like super crazy

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in love with the baby. So
like every time, you know, the

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baby cried, Dudley ran over to
me and he was like, oh my

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god, the baby's crying. The
baby's crying. Do something, do something,

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like I hear I can hear Dudley. Um, and you know he

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would sit by the high chair,
but not because he wanted to catch the

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food every time, you know,
the baby, you know with the food

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when flying. Dudley was like,
oh my god, the if he's not

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getting enough food, pick up the
food. Pick up the food. Mom,

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pick up the phone and give it
to the baby. Like, yeah,

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you do your job exactly. Do
your job. You're not doing your

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job. You know, I would
hold the baby. Are you holding the

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baby well enough? I don't know, be gentle, be gentle, be

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gentle If I didn't get up right
away for the Dudley and Dudley, I

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was Dudley's person, right, like
he loved my ex, but he adored

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me. Right. If the baby
was in the swing and like started to

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yawn, Dudley was like, oh
that's weird, that looks weird, and

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he would grab me by the sleeve. Come to the baby, come to

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the baby. Like he was so
all about the baby, like, oh

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my god, fuck the baby.
Leave me alone. Let me sleep.

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I haven't slept in four weeks.
Leave me alone. So one day,

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the baby's in the swing and I
turned on the TV. And the way

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my house was set up then,
is that the entertainment center was on this

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wall is totally opposite from how I
have it now. And there was like

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a six inch gap between the wall
and the entertainment center. And I'm watching

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TV and my eyes they're unfocused,
and they go down to the rug the

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carpet right, and I see this
unexpected, strange site. I don't know

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what it is. It requires further
investigation. So I go over there and

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I put my hand there, and
it's wet. So what does one do

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when you find a wet spot and
a corner where there shouldn't be one,

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Well, you put your entire hand
there and then, yes, it is

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that what you do, especially when
you have animals in the house and you

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know what it's gonna smell, And
of course it's a buddle of pits.

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And who is the only one who
could fit in that corner? And who

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is the only one who is angry
about the baby kitchen? Yep? So

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I call the vet and I'm like, I had a baby four weeks ago,

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and now my cat is pissing on
my carpet. Well, you know

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these are normal. Yes, I
know, pills. I want pills.

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What pills can I get my cat? Like? Oh, well, we

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can do kitty prozac. I want
the kitty prozac. I want a strong

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dose of kitty prozac. I want
it ready in twenty minutes. It'll take

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me twenty minutes to get there.
Twenty minutes. Can it be ready in

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twenty minutes? Twenty minutes? Help
you there in twenty minutes. We'll be

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ready in twenty minutes, twenty minutes, twenty minutes. They're like, I

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will have it ready in so within
the hour. Let's just say Gidget got

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her first dose of kitty prozac.
Now, anybody who's had a cat knows

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how difficult it is to force a
pill down a cat's throat. Now imagine

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that cat hating you. Yes,
the level of difficulty increases. And so

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I because there's such tiny little creatures, and yet they are so vicious.

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When you're I got it, someone's
trying to shove a pill down my throat.

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I may bite them too, but
they got paws and teeth, and

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they are vicious, vicious, and
we were again, we're already in a

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fight. So I so I feel
no remorse, and I shove this motherfucking

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pulled down her throat and then I
throw her down, you know, and

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like a teenager. She's up storms
up this stairs and says, because I

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can hear her, I hear the
words that she's saying to me in her

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body language, You're the worst mother
in the world. I hate you.

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And I'm like, well, I
hate you too, getting we're fighting,

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fighting, So for the next two
or three days she is druged off her

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ass, and I don't care.
We go through this the next two or

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three days. I don't care.
I don't know what happened next. I

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really don't know what happened. I
must have been particularly silent because I walk

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from my kitchen to my living room
and I see Dudley standing upright on his

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two high to lakes with his right
paw holding on to the top of my

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entertainment center was standing entertainment center.
He was standing both lakes, Both back

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legs were on the ground, his
front legs one his right paul was holding

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onto the entertainment center. His left
Paul was balancing himself, using the wall

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to balance himself, and he was
aiming his dick towards the corner my living

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room carpet as if, Oh my
god, he was like it was a

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urinal, Oh god, him standing
like a full grown man and peeing in

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the corner of my house. And
how did you feel? Oh, I

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didn't even go there yet, I
was I was astonished, like I couldn't

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move. And Dudley at some point
must have felt me staring at him,

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because he turns his head and as
he remains standing, so we're like eye

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to eye. We're staring at each
other for what he stops being mid stream,

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like the piece stops immediately, and
we're across the living room from each

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other. We're at the same height. We're staring at each other for a

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very long time. And then I
remember I'm wearing slippers, so I reach

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down to grab one to chuck it
at him. When he remembers he has

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four paws, so he gets down
on all four plaus and he takes off.

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Now my house is only so big, right right, I, however,

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am not a runner. I am
like possessed by flash because I run

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after this dog and I am on
his tail, and you know what pun

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intended. I am on this dog's
tail, but I am so fucking close,

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and I'm gonna get him, and
my god, when I get him,

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I am gonna call him. And
I am chasing him until he reaches

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the stairs, and he gets up
the stairs, but I'm not far behind.

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And when he dog lives under my
bed. So I get to the

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side of my bed and I right, and then he scooches to the right.

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So I get up and I run
to the right, and I go

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and he gets the left, so
I go to the left and he goes

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to the right. So I go
to the right, and he goes to

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the left, and I go to
the left, king size bed. I

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am ex soft, I am exhausted, and I am laying there and I

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have been beaten down by life sucks. And then I hear, yeah,

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oh kids, it as if she
says, I told you it wasn't me,

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and she was right wow. And
I sit up, and the tears

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that I have been holding in for
like the last five weeks poor out,

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and she climbs up me as she
always does, or did when I cried,

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and she put her paws around my
neck per usual and licked my tears.

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And I held on to this cat
for dear life. And it was

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at that moment when I realized that, okay, I've got to get it

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back. Everything is going to be
okay. Yes, everything is better deadly

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stayed under. He stayed under for
three day, the last half hours and

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he never repeated in my health us
again. I loved that cat so much.

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I don't know if you remember this
that. My kids would often ask

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me, do you love us more
than you love Gitgen? Not between each

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other? Like you like him better? You like it? Do you like

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the cat better than me? You
do love us more than you love Gidget?

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Right, And I would say,
guys, don't ask me questions that

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you don't love. The answer probably
not the best mommy answer. Actually,

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probably another not the best mommy answer
to is when they were together, and

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not only when they were little,
like still him, who do you love

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better? I would saying, like
they stop doing this, by the way,

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I think you know it's the older
one. I love you so much

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more on Monday's and days and Friday, that's cute, and you to the

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little one so much more on Tuesdays, Thursdays and Saturdays. But I've got

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to be honest with you on Sundays, I kind of hate you both.

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Well, they have to balance the
equal amount of days exactly, and just

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know that they will. They will
joke about that until like the day you're

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dead because my brother and I do
the same thing with my mother and we're

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just we're just kidding, We're like
poking her and she's like, you know,

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the same kind of answer. But
yes, they will, they will

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do that, and so the day
you die, well, then I hope

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it's a good mommy answer and not
like I'm going to be in therapy for

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the rest of my life kind of
answer. So I think we should throw

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out to anyone who has stories about
transitioning a baby into a house with pets,

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please share it with us. We
would love to hear them on our

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next episode. Liz, Yes,
what is the topic? I think we

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need to talk about road rage because
yesterday I had an incident, okay,

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and I got into trouble by my
son who was in the car, and

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I got caught by somebody who very
unexpectedly, somehow was in the mists of

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this road rage incident that I was
involved in, and like, they're not

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really talking to me right now,
so I can't wait to hear the story.

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Yeah, and when your child chastised, Yeah, and it's the little

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one too, was the little one
who Yeah? Yeah, So I think

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you know we're gonna let time pass
for everyone involved. You're still very very

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angry and concerned, like, why
would you do this? How could you

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put your kid in this kind of
danger? What the fuck is your problem?

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Are you? Okay, so we're
gonna let you know a little bit

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of time pass. Okay, Well, thank you everybody for listening, and

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